This entry is part what is and a large dose of what is hoped!
(This is an edited journal entry.)
Control is a big thing.  It is a big issue.  I think that we go through our lives largely experiencing subconscious control of many aspects of our lives.  This is probably brought about by the collective unconscious, experience, ramifications, developing discernment and the like.  We may not even be aware of these except for trauma or more happily, changes in belief systems that bring all this into question.  While this might be a really great journaling topic, I think I’ll save it for a time when I am smarter.  For now I’ll let it catch energy and love.
What I am writing about here  are those issues upon which we impress conscious control.    For instance:

Personal
Weight
Finances
Technology(hah!)
Life partners

Business issues
Associates
Technology
Building maintenance
Your own sanity.

I’m not even going into creative stuff.

After having been retired for 8 months I started helping my husband with our phenom Wine Shop.  For the most part this is blissful.  However, there is a constant sense of the unknowing and attendant grasp to control.  This week all these little elves have found a mountaintop upon which too settle and play with us.
On Tuesday our entire system including our charge terminal went down for the whole day until 20 minutes after closing.  We spent the day making modifications to control the damage, purchasing plug-ins to overcome inconvenience and the like.  (Thank-you to all our wonderful customers who had cash.  And extra thanks to the sweet man who actually went to an ATM…no joke!)  Over our Italian take-out (who was going to cook healthy?) we spoke about how beautiful this moment was now that the technology thing was coming together.
The next morning I awakened to find that my debit card had been hacked overnight.  It was nothing big and easily taken care of, but yes, I lost it over the breakfast table for a bit.
After enjoying a great swimming lesson the next day (I swear the water was gliding around me as I was swimming within it), I was resting with the poodle and a cup of tea, when a text came from a business attachment.  During my tea break this person texted to request even more accommodations than we had been providing(and we are very accommodating).
So I started texting to take care of the situation.  And to control.

The next evening we learned that a valued friend would(because of guidance miscommunication) be leaving the area.

As we were driving home that evening, I mentioned that perhaps we were being given a message to let up with some of the control already!  With everything we were trying to control within the business, it wasn’t soaring.  Maybe we should release all to God and Spirit and trust that everything is working out as it should.  I do carry the belief that when everything seems to be falling apart it is often just realigning and finding its balance.  Maybe, I thought, we could just trust this for a while.
So we went home and enjoyed our salmon.
One hour later I was obsessing about….oh yes…my weight.  Does this control thing ever give up?!?!?!?!?!?!?

I think the control thing does give up…and this is the bliss and renewal part.  Sometimes we just have to pull attention away from what we are seeking to control(This is a big dose of Abraham-Hicks and probably Seth speaks…but it works for me) and bring it to what brings us joy.
For real.   We know that these happenings will occur.  For what it’s worth Mercury is in retrograde which I am told encourages technological mix-ups and miscommunication.  Perhaps our attempts to control are firing up Mercury more abundantly than usual.  In any case I do believe that joy is the answer.  Encountering this stuff with bliss(when emotionally available…and it’s not always for me) and seeking  joy brings such renewal of spirit and love and energy!
So I am going to internalize the great najowrimo focus on personal renewal and focus on joy and bliss.  Remember what we are within, we project externally.  I am giving up the control I can and resting in the sweet waters of bliss and joy.

I’ll keep myself posted on how this is going. 🙂

In Bliss and Peace and Joy!

©2017 Carolyn Mora