My goal for April is to (was to)…(might still be to) journal 500 words a day.

Although the najowrimo theme is personal renewal, I don’t know that I really want to follow a theme.  Really, for me, journal writing is a distinct form of renewal anyway and of re-creation.  So the act of reflectively setting pen to paper would seem in itself to be succeeding in that endeavor.  In writing of our dreams, happenings, challenges, days, we sift and release the art within memory to the colors of our days.  In fact, the re-creative aspect of journaling is so powerful to me that there are times, facets that I purposefully omit to keep them from grasping the power of the pen to page 🙂 .

I suppose then that journaling for me is not just documentary or art but also affirmation.  In the act of journaling I am saying:

“I am here. “  “I count.”  “I matter.”

My life is worth more than time, paper, pen.  I am worth opening my heart and recreating my thoughts, dreams, desires, observations on the page.  I am worth pouring my soul and tears out into ink and pulp to the world, for me to read this recreation back to myself.

I am worth the very best creation of my life.

And it is a beautiful thought for me that this creation be on the page.  The page has for so long been the therapist, the stalwart best friend, the angel, the wizard.  The page has helped me through tears and strife and has celebrated without boundary.  Perhaps most of all, the page has always been safe and sacrosanct (I love the way that word is put together.).  It has been it’s own universe.  Well, perhaps more,  it has been my universe. And when all is written and done isn’t it quite sweet and comfortable to have that one safe space that is ours alone?

…Ok, this was not (after editing) 500 words, but I got it up here…yay…and sometimes that is the bliss of a goal achieved.  Sometimes, tho’, so much more is waiting to come out of the achievement. In peace and bliss the road will go ever on.

©2017  Carolyn Mora