Day Two—I’m “fleshing” out my program.  Physically,my body is tired but fine….not starving, but, let’s face it….not really satiated!  Mostly this day was about signs and I think intention.  I learned a few gentle lessons about intent, the universe, and my own consciousness.   In fact, I think I can divide the experiences into three lessons!

Lesson One:  When we set an intention, the universe moves all matter into place for its manifestation for the highest good for all.

Day One I saw a neat photo of a castle on FB.  There was a plank bridge leading to it.  I laughed because it reminded me of my journey.  I printed it and headed it with “Carolyn’s Clean Eating Journey.”  I made two copies, taped one to the inside of the fridge, left the other on my desk. I went on with my day.  That night I came back to my desk and noticed that the photo was covered with butterflies!  A sticker sheet had found its way to the photo!  The whole view was changed.  Instead of a forbidding deserted long walk, there was a flowerfield of butterflies emerging from the bridge and flying upward and onward!  Suddenly I felt such affirmation for my endeavor!  Transformation existing with a solid base and very substantial destination.  All this was now surrounded by blue skies and lovely reflective water.  Brilliant.

Day Two started on that high level.  I was to  get my nails done in the morning, work for a bit, then workout with my trainer in the afternoon.  In the evening Rich and I had an informal business meeting.  I was keen for the workout as I hadn’t been walking because of the snow and needed the movement.  Of course I was also maladaptively fearful that my clean eating was going to put weight on me.  Apart from that small, minute, ever Carolyn hitch, I was trusting the universe and happy about life!

Lesson 2:  When you decide to embark on an endeavor, the universe first conspires against you.

I posted to a FB group one word that implied, I think, “Heavenly.”  I wrote “physical comfort.”  Now, I have seen in life that there seem to be two divergent behaviors we cede to the universe when we are embarking on an endeavor. The first behavior is that the universe brings everything together to work for the highest good for us. The other is that expressed by my husband this afternoon.  The moment we decide to do something the universe conspires against us.
After posting “physical comfort” I shaved my legs(with an electric shaver) for a pedicure(yay). It stung a little. I looked down and noticed that my left lower leg was all scratched! I called in Rich who exclaimed “Holy cat claws Carolyn!”   It bled a bit, but subsided. I went off to my pedicure.

While I was getting the toes  polished I noticed that I was holding my leg a little strangely.  I don’t know why.  Maybe I was being protective.  At any rate, after I was home for a bit the back of my left calf started screaming!  I could barely put weight on the leg.  I hobbled around the house for a time before decided to call my trainer and cancel.  Rich suggested a hot bath for the muscle. It was then that he mentioned that thought about the universe conspiring against us.  I agreed for a moment. But I was more concerned about my leg.  I decided that the pain must have had something to do with scratches on the front of the leg and so rubbed Neosporin all over the scratches.  Yes, I really did do that.  I also decided that maybe the universe was telling me that on my second Clean Eating Day I really didn’t need the extra stress of a workout. Perhaps it was a better idea to nurture the body for a couple of days.  And that does make sense.  When we are changing our eating habits, it is smart to take it easy on the body physically and indulge…

So in this mood, I drew a hot bath.  My leg really wasn’t feeling any better but, hey, a bath is a bath.

Lesson 3: When we embark on a clean eating/thinking/living  journey our consciousness begins to open.  All our fears, insecurities, and internal toxins are the first things to rise and call home to Mama!

As I wrote, I was lazing in the bath, candles lit, when I just starting thinking about not buying this or that because I didn’t have money.  This was strange.  First of all I have plenty of money.  I can and do buy whatever I need.  But, years ago(particularly in college) I was in constant financial distress.  Most college students are.  My money issues did stay with me for a while, but really, I thought them well gone. In fact, the little guys are probably living in the lap of luxury in my mind.  Oh yeah, there they are, sitting in a overstuffed easy chair staying warm by the fire of toasting marshmallows and baking cupcakes.  My insecurities were used to the good stuff and now I had taken it away! Hah!  They were not going to take this sitting down!

It actually took me a while to figure out what was happening and to make sense of it.  I glad I was in the bath, because if I were in the kitchen, I may have had to get some whipped cream or pudding, or Frozen Yogurt(so much healthier) to help me think.

I realized that depriving the body of its toxins brings up the internal ones!  How often do we eat just to feed our lost child, our heart needs, our memories?  How can we nurture them in other ways? This will be fun to investigate.  I’m sure it will come up again.

For the rest of the day…

I ate dinner before the meeting.  Drank water throughout.  I felt very virtuous.  As I expected, my leg felt much better after a good sleep. (although the scratches are still red and raised.)…(Holy paranormal electric shaver activity, Batman!).  Notably, I’m getting all my supplements in.

Tomorrow is date night, so it’s my meal off.  I’m looking forward to it.  I know it’s only been a couple of days, but it’s the only night that’s reasonable for us, and I think it’s been a couple of gently exciting days already!

Peace and Bliss

Thanks for reading!